tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-70565699002767994492024-03-08T17:02:31.548-08:00IVF after Gastric Bypass SurgeryLorenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11278676525840338109noreply@blogger.comBlogger65125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7056569900276799449.post-15801727023827607502010-11-11T18:36:00.000-08:002010-11-11T18:56:01.991-08:00Tears and SunshineI wonder how long it takes until you can talk about your child's illness without crying? I realized this week that there isn't a day that goes by where I don't shed a tear. It's like "break through" pain that escaped my vault. The vault of where I store my heartache for all that's happened this past year and the uncertainty of the future. As hard as I try, I can't stop images of Julian in a coma, completely swollen, looking like a different person laying there from creeping into my mind. Most of the time I'm spaced out from all of the holding back of the emotional dam.<br /><br />Last week, myself as well as the rest of my kids had to go get tested for this mutated gene and for the function of the cells related to this gene (NK cells). I learned that there is a 50% chance that I passed it on and we already know that I have to have one copy of the gene for Julian to have gotten it. Most of the research articles published about the gene mutation that I have are people whom died of HLH and had one copy of the gene. Julian has two copies which places him at a higher risk. I suppose each day I will take a baby step closer to learning how to live with the "uncertainty" of life.<br /><br />I have a goal to organize a bone marrow drive and have found out that there needs to be a fundraiser done first. This is to help cover the costs of having people tested and placed on the bone marrow registry. The cost is approximately $100 per person. The fundraising is what I'm having difficulty with. My ideas keep hitting a brick wall and I don't have the strength right now aggressively persue it. I'm still working away at it. <br /><br />In the meantime I have I am finding great comfort in my beatiful 10 month baby and in seeing Julian thrive as a football quarterback and maintaining straight A's. He is amazing and doing so well. His recovery really is a miracle. God is so powerful!Lorenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11278676525840338109noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7056569900276799449.post-56022082662239611512010-10-24T19:58:00.000-07:002010-10-24T20:12:10.912-07:00Blood Test Comes BackBlood test confirmed that the FET was not a success. I'm glad that I already knew the results. I think it would be tough to build hope and let your mind play tricks on you just so that it crushes you at the end. I felt prepared. Although, POAS can play tricks on one's mind too.<br /><br />No more IVF cycles for our family. I've hit that place where I have to accept that I have a beautiful baby boy and I'm blessed for that. <br /><br />I am still struggling to cope with Julian's prognosis. He's strong and healthy and feels great but to know that he is high risk for relapsing is a bitter pill to swallow. I wonder if I will ever be able to think of how sick he got without crying. I can't even look a the cards or photos that he received while he was in the hospital without falling apart. I hope that this doesn't last forever. I hope that I have Julian around for my "forever".Lorenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11278676525840338109noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7056569900276799449.post-84770164518503436282010-09-30T19:21:00.000-07:002010-09-30T19:30:09.468-07:00Negatives NegativesI am 8dp5dt from FET and still had a BFN this morning and evening. I feel my heart getting heavier and heavier in my chest. The reality of this being my last shot is sinking in and the reality of it most likely being a failed cycle. <br /><br />Today was a rough day with Julian. He forgot he had football practice and didn't show up yesterday. I had a long conversation with two of his coaches that are not happy with him. Julian is the quarterback of his team and has not been throwing as well, running as fast, or been as fearless as he was (which was never that fearless anyway) since he was sick. I realize that most of the coaches don't understand that Julian lives with the knowledge that he may get sick again and there is a level of uncertainty about his future. That's quite a load for a 12 year old to carry. Let's not forget the waking up from a coma, not being able to walk or feed yourself and realizing that you missed a month of your life. This was only a few months ago. It's amazing that he is playing at all.<br /><br />So, part of me gets angry that he just isn't trying that hard and he isn't focused and the other part of me feels angry with the coaches for not understanding. Then there's the part of me that feels bad for the coaches because they want to play Julian but he isn't making it easy. <br /><br />Julian was a star quarterback that is a talented player, as I am told. So, their expectations are high. Maybe it was too soon for him. Maybe it was too soon for this FET. Why does everything feel like such a conflict for me. The only time that I don't feel conflicted is when I have the baby in my arms. Then, I just feel happy and thankful. I wonder if I will ever be able to look at Julian and not have this intense fear of "what if he gets sick again?" in my chest. Will I ever look at him and not feel the pain of almost losing him? <br /><br />I am not sure that I can handle a negative beta. It's lost cord blood, last chance, lost embryo/baby. My beta is next Wednesday and my mind will be going nuts until then.Lorenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11278676525840338109noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7056569900276799449.post-84066327777741298162010-09-27T10:49:00.000-07:002010-09-27T10:50:24.573-07:00Julian's websiteYou can look at Julian's website for more information:<br /><a href="http://www.carepages.com/">www.carepages.com</a><br />search for the profile "4juliankinard"Lorenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11278676525840338109noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7056569900276799449.post-73580749971693143162010-09-27T10:12:00.000-07:002010-09-27T10:47:29.755-07:00So Many ChangesIt has been a long time since I have written. I am happy to say that I had a beautiful little baby boy on December 30th. He was born at 35 weeks gestation and is happy and healthy and has brought me so much joy.<br /><br />I was a crazy time. I had just been diagnosed with pregnancy induced hypertension and placed on bedrest the week before Christmas. During that same week, my 12 year old developed a fever. This also happen to be the "swineflu" season and it was everywhere. I assumed that he had the flu. However, as the days past he developed no other symptoms aside from fatigue and no appetite. He never had a sore throat, vomiting, diarrhea or anything else. After almost a week, he suddently became very yellow (jaundiced) and therefore we immediately took him to the hospital. We discovered that he was in liver failuer and were transferred to Children's Hospital in DC. <br /><br />Needless to say that the stress and lack of bed rest was not helping my pregnancy but there was nothing in the world that was going to keep me from being near my 12 year old. Several doctors saw him and could only say that they suspected some type of virus caused him to have hepatitis. He tested negative for everything (EBV, CMV, HIV, Hep B and C, Strep, Flu). <br /><br />After a few hours of being there, I thought that my water had broken. I was moving stuff around in his room when I felt that gush. I was shocked to find that it was blood and not clear fluid. Fortunately my cousins had just arrived to see Julian (my son) and therefore my husband was able to rush me to the hospital. I was evalated and diagnosed with a cervial polyp or tear and discharged. When I returned to my son's hospital, he was on life support. It was devastating. There were still no answers and he was on the maximum doses for medications to support his blood pressures, he heart rhythms were abnormal, his fevers about 105, his platelet counts (which is the component of the blood that allows the body to clot and not bleed out) was down to 3 when normal is 150-400. He was bleeding in to his eyes, lungs, brain. He was unresponsive. I felt like my life was falling apart and couldn't imagine how I was going to deliver a baby or be a mother to a newborn when my 12 year old desperately needed me and worst yet, what if he didn't make it.<br /><br />My son's nurses felt very concerned and strongly encouraged me to be seen by my OB (whom was not the person that evaluated me at the hospital). I agreed and went the next morning and was told that the baby would be delivered right away because my doctor felt that I had a slow tear in my placenta and my blood pressure was out of control. I literally fell to the floor crying because I didn't want to stay away from Julian for that long but had no choice.<br /><br />My doctor was awesome, he spent most of my labor pacing around in my room. He did everything that he could to ensure that I would have a vaginal delivery knowing that I would be leaving the hospital as soon as I possibly could and he was right. Carson was born shortly after 7p and was taken to the NICU for some help with his breathing. After a few hours I left and returned to Julian's side. Carson was in a Maryland hospital and Julian was in DC. <br /><br />Carson came home in about a week and Julian was seen by a new doctor the CNMC that had come from Cincinnati Children's Hospital. He recognized the rare illness that was attacking Julian's body and began treatment. He was diagnosed with Hemophagocytic Lymphohistiocytosis (HLH). Julian had received several blood transfusions, had swelling in his brain but was continuing the fight for his life. He finally began to turn the corner in the first few days of January. New Year's Eve was his worst night where we thought that we would lose him.<br /><br />After several weeks in the hospital and going through rehab to learn to walk again and gain his strength, he finally came home. He is now back to being the quarterback of his football team and thriving. We are so blessed!!!! I learned the value of life in a way that most never will.<br /><br />Unfortunately the only cure to HLH is a bone marrow transplant which at this point would only be done if Julian were to relapse. He is in remission with a risk of relapse. However, the doctors have told us that no one can say if and when he will ever get sick again and it is this reason that we won't do a BMT unless he relapses. That brought us to deciding to use the 2 frozen embryos we have. We want to store the cord blood which was not saved with Carson. <br /><br />We had the embryos thawed last week, one surivived and was trasnferred on Septermber 22. I am not sure what to feel about everything. I am still not recovered from all that happened. Today is 5dp5dt and I had a negative. I know that it's early and I hear that with FET's, you get an even later results. So, pray for God's will and that I can handle whatever that might be.Lorenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11278676525840338109noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7056569900276799449.post-69208189857322696402009-05-25T12:45:00.000-07:002009-05-25T12:47:23.267-07:00BFP!!!I had my beta done this morning and my RE herself called me back. Normally, a nurse calls you back with lab results. I was wonderful to hear her say "you are pregnant". My beta was 267 at 12dp5dt. I am flying to Seattle tomorrow for work and will have to figure out where I can have my repeats HCG (beta) levels out there this week. My sonogram will be next Tuesday.Lorenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11278676525840338109noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7056569900276799449.post-90853953656995329212009-05-22T18:26:00.000-07:002009-05-22T18:27:46.193-07:00Correction on HPTI wrote earlier that I first tested on 5dp5dt....I actually did but received a negative that day. I tested every morning since. The first faint positive that got was 6dp5dt. <br /><br />Still feeling good but tired. I can't wait for my beta.Lorenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11278676525840338109noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7056569900276799449.post-81149552806926349962009-05-21T20:04:00.000-07:002009-05-21T20:07:39.984-07:00Forgot something....They put two blasts in on 5/13/09 and I actually had two blasts that made it freezing. I am a happy that I have a back up for another try if this doesn't work out (which hurts to even mention that) but on the flip side....I feel guilty wondering what am I going to do with them if this pregnancy is successful. I don't believe in destroying them, and I don't want to pay money out for the rest of my life on keeping them frozen and I don't think that I could handle giving them away.Lorenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11278676525840338109noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7056569900276799449.post-90058274518148880352009-05-21T20:00:00.000-07:002009-05-21T20:04:01.443-07:00HPT resultsI took my first hpt 5dp5dt and got a very faint positive. I have continued to take one hpt every morning and the positive line has continued to get darker. So, it appears that I might actually be pregnant! I am cautiosly optomistic and too afraid to be happy. After two failed cycles and one ruptured ectopic....I need to see the heart beat before I start to let myself relax. My beta is scheduled for Monday (Memorial Day).Lorenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11278676525840338109noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7056569900276799449.post-51482961080566532912009-05-09T21:13:00.000-07:002009-05-09T21:16:26.215-07:00Fertilization ReportOut of my 9 eggs retrieved...8 were mature and 7 fertilized using ICSI. They were all at two cells today. I hope that they are thriving and I can't wait to here tomorrow how they are doing and when they go back in.<br /><br />I am concerned about my lining. It went from 8.2 to 6.8 at the end of stimulation. I am not doing progesteron shots this time. They have me on estrace pills and I start the endometrium suppositories the day after retrieval. My RE's office told me not to worry because my estrogen level was at 2600 and the estrace would help my lining be ready for the transfer. Trust is difficult in this process! Specially for a control freak like me! <br /><br />If I do a 3 day transfer, three embryos go back in. If it makes it to a 5 day, 2 will go back in.Lorenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11278676525840338109noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7056569900276799449.post-66534896379637433612009-05-08T12:23:00.000-07:002009-05-08T12:26:43.580-07:00The eggs are out!Well the cycle has progressed with ups and down. It started out with such slow growing of the follicles and a huge 42mm cyst that it was almost cancelled. Then the cyst decreased to half of its size (thanks to a lot of praying) and the follicles started to grow a little better. <br /><br />I haven't been a huge egg producer so the 7 that they were looking at was expected...although still disapointing to me. Today the eggs came out and they actually got 9. I was pleasantly surprised. My husband said a prayer before I went in for the retrieval so I have to give the credit to God again. I won't find out until tomorrow how many were mature and how many turned out fertilizing. I am hoping for 5 to 6. More prayers!Lorenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11278676525840338109noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7056569900276799449.post-12734487695055610782009-04-28T17:29:00.000-07:002009-04-28T17:35:21.871-07:00IVF #3We are starting off to a tricky start. Today was my first monitoring day which is stimulation day 4 for me. My estrogen level was 468 and I have a cyst that measures 42 mm on the left ovary. There were 10 eggs visible but it is still early. <br /><br />I was hoping for more eggs being that I am on the lupron flare protocol (micrdose lupron protocol) and I am concerned that the cyst will interfere with the progress of my cycle. My medication doses were lowered from 150 menapur to 75 and the Gonal F will remain at 300, no change with the twice a day 20 units of lupron. I return tomorrow for more bloodwork and another sonogram.Lorenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11278676525840338109noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7056569900276799449.post-59227428339715371932009-03-30T15:35:00.000-07:002009-03-30T15:39:59.629-07:00IVF #3Well, I am back after a long break. I had an HSG done and learned that my remaining tube after my ectopic was blocked. My insurance finally approved IVF, so here we go again. Today is CD1 and I start BCP Wednesday. They are estimating my egg retrieval to be on 5/6. We are really hoping this one will work. <br /><br />I had to start synthroid and repliva because my thyroid levels were off and the anemia creeped back. We wanted to make sure that all of my lab levels are normal for this time. Gastric bypass has made that challenging at times.Lorenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11278676525840338109noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7056569900276799449.post-5928357736818233122008-07-30T19:24:00.000-07:002008-07-30T19:29:50.699-07:00UpdateI have pretty much healed completely. I am hoping that I can still have a successful pregnancy with the one tube that I have left. I am supposed to schedule an HSG at the beginning of my next period. If the one tube that I have left is blocked....then my doctor said that we can submit a request for my insurance to cover the cost of IVF. This of coarse is...after having a current loan for almost $25,000 for all of the infertility stuff we have already done. It think that the loss feels so much more heavier when you are empty handed and in debt! <br /><br />I am not sure if I prefer for my tube to be open and get stuck with having to try naturally with such a small chance that I will conceive or if I am hoping that it is blocked in the hope that maybe our insurance will actually pay for IVF. I hate how having a baby for me really just boils down to money.<br /><br />I suppose all that I can do is pray....it really is out of my hands.Lorenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11278676525840338109noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7056569900276799449.post-53681721830128442132008-06-23T18:10:00.000-07:002008-06-23T18:20:05.781-07:00Ruptured EctopicWell, I never made it to my doctor appointment today. I ruptured my ectopic pregnancy while working in the ER this weekend. I was in the middle of assisting a doctor with popping a dislocated shoulder back into into place. All of the sudden I got completely soaked in sweat and felt like I was a second away from passing out. I began having pressure and a dull ache through out my pelvic area. I also felt pressure over my bowels. I stepped away to compose myself. I sat down, began fanning myself. After a few minutes it got a little better but the pressure in my pelvis was building. So, I talked with one of the doctors and he asked me check in right away. I gave my patients to another nurse and checked in.<br /><br />My repeat HCG level showed a drop from 1700 to 1400. The repeat sonogram showed no sac in the uterus and a mass was visible on one of the tubes. The bloodwork also showed a drop in my H and H (which means that I was losing blood)...so, within an hour I was off to the OR. They removed my left tube....which had infact ruptured. There was blood in my belly. <br /><br />They had been suspecting that my ectopic was on my right side but it turned out to be on the left. I was glad for that. My shorter tube with some scar tissue was the left tube. My right tube is my longer one with no known scarring. <br /><br />The doctor that did the surgery recommended not TTC for 3 months and having an HSG to check and see if my remainding tube is patent before TTC again. <br /><br />Physically I am sore. I was discharged this evening. Emotionally I am not as good. I am really feeling the loss of my baby. I also feel anger that I can't just get pregnant and have a healthy baby. I feel scared that I will never have one and that this might happen again. <br /><br />It makes me really sad to think that I was pregnant yesterday and now I am not...just like that...it's over.Lorenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11278676525840338109noreply@blogger.com11tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7056569900276799449.post-26877171888772873492008-06-23T17:54:00.001-07:002008-06-23T18:09:05.064-07:00Ruptured EctopicWell, I never made it to my appointment today. I ectopic pregnancy ruptured while I was working in the ER. I was in the middle of assisting with popping a dislocated shoulder back into place when I suddenly got soaked with sweat and felt like I was going to pass out. I kept hoping the shoulder would pop back in because I didn't think I would be able to stand up for much longer. I left the room, went to sit down, began fanning myself and started to feel pressure in my entire pelvic area. I also felt a lot of pressure over my bowels. After a few minutes it passed but I began having a dull ache with increasing pressure in my pelvic region. <br /><br />I talked to a doctor in the ER and he asked me to check in right away. I gave my patients to another nurse and checked in. They did repeat HCG levels that showed my level dropped from 1700 to 1400 and the repeat sonogram showed no sac in the uterus but a visible mass on my tube. So, within an hour I was in the OR. My left tube was removed and I had infact ruptured the tube with my ectopic pregnancy. <br /><br />My left tube is my shorter tube that measured 3.5 cm and had some mild scar tissue. My right tube is 4 cm and had no visible scar tissue...this is after my tubal ligation reversal. So, I am glad that my better tube is still intact. The doctor that did the surgery recommended not TTC for 3 months and having an HSG prior to TTC again. <br /><br />I was discharged from the hospital this evening. I am pretty sore...the surgery was done laporscopically (that might be spelled wrong). Emotionally I feel pretty down. I am really feeling the loss of my baby. The nurse assigned to me was pregnant and looked like she was due to deliver any day now. That upset me. I kept seeing commercials for the Clear Blue digital pregnancy tests! It's heart breaking to be pregnant one moment and then not be pregnant the next.....just like that. At time I feel angry that others can have healthy pregnancies and I can't...then I feel overwhelmed with sadness that I lost my baby and fear hits me that I won't get pregnant again. I am terrified of going through this again. This was horrible!Lorenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11278676525840338109noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7056569900276799449.post-74267529275366424972008-06-20T11:11:00.001-07:002008-06-20T11:18:01.848-07:00Ectopic???My doctor called today with the lab results from the visit that I had in his office yesterday. My HCG level went from 504 to 1700. I wanted to be happy...However, it means that when he did a sonogram in his office yesterday and saw no sac....there should have been a sac. He wanted me to come in to his office today and do the methotrexate shot to terminate this pregnancy which is being diagnosed as ectopic. <br /><br />I really couldn't bring myself to do that. I agreed to come to the office on Monday morning for one last sonogram. If there is no sac in the uterus at that time....I will do the shot. That will be the hardest thing that I have ever done. <br /><br />I have read so much information and there is some out there that says...sometimes you can't see a sac until your HCG is at 2000. I am going to hope and pray that is the case this time. By Monday my HCG level should be at about 3500. My doctor feels concerned that I will rupture my tube this weekend. I had to remind him that I am an ER nurse and I will actually be working in the ER Sunday....if anything goes wrong, I know what to be aware of and I will be treated right away. He has already discussed my case with the on call doctor for this weekend...she has my name and number. <br /><br />So, tonight I will go out to the dinner cruise that my husband and I booked when we found out that I was pregnant and I will feel blessed that I am pregnant for the moment.Lorenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11278676525840338109noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7056569900276799449.post-48398055397692622482008-06-17T14:36:00.000-07:002008-06-17T14:39:24.735-07:00Doulbing Numbers!My doctor called today with his update...my HCG level from yesterday's blood draw came back at 504! I am nervously excited!!!! My progesterone was 12...low but within normal. My doctor will see me again on Thursday for a repeat sonogram and blood work. He mentioned that if it turns out to be ectopic, he doesn't want to do the metho shot...he would rather just take the tube. He feels that if I have an ectopic, it means that the tubal reversal didn't work on that side. I sent a message to the doctor that did my surgery for another opinion. I am really nervous about everything but I am still praying!Lorenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11278676525840338109noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7056569900276799449.post-62490472398438165062008-06-15T20:45:00.000-07:002008-06-15T20:56:02.389-07:00ER VisitBy the time I got to the ER there was no sign of bleeding at all. I still had some mild cramping. The sonogram showed a tiny sac in my uterus that still couldn't be measured because I am just under 5 weeks. The possibility that it is a pseudo sac still exists. A pseudo sac is a collection of blood that appears to be a sac. My HCG last night in the ER was 241. I was shocked to hear that is ALMOST doubled in the last two days. I felt my heart skip a beat with excitement. However, my head quickly began doing calculations:<br />1st HCG - Monday June 9 was 95, the following day was 130, two days after that on Thursday June 12th is was only 139. That was when it appeared to be headed to a miscarriage. Then last night in the ER is was 241. Ideally...they should be at about 600 right now...and that would be on the low side. I felt my heart sink again after those facts went through my head. <br /><br />We see my doctor tomorrow for another HCG and sonogram. I so very much want to have hope but I want to be realistic.Lorenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11278676525840338109noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7056569900276799449.post-69003783422589212542008-06-14T14:42:00.000-07:002008-06-14T14:44:23.228-07:00BleedingI finally started very light spotting. I feel so much relief. I have very light cramping. I really just want this to be over so that we can focus on trying again and not the loss. My OB recommended that I go to the ER just for HCG numbers. He said it was too early to know if it was ectopic.Lorenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11278676525840338109noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7056569900276799449.post-22810384171811732182008-06-13T09:11:00.000-07:002008-06-13T09:14:30.509-07:00No rise in HCGWell...I received a call from my OB this moring. My HCG is 139 which is pretty much the same it was 3 days ago. This means that I will either miscarry or that it is ectopic. I am having no symptoms but it really sucks to just sit here and wonder how the end will be. <br /><br />I wish that I would have taken my husband's advice and not shared it with the family this past weekend. It was just hard to hold news that I was so excited about in. I really wanted to share my joy.....however, I really don't want to share my pain now. <br /><br />I guess the good thing is that I know the tubal reversal was successful because I can infact get pregnant. I just wish that the risks for ectopic and miscarriages weren't so hi.Lorenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11278676525840338109noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7056569900276799449.post-89617643959682388042008-06-10T19:43:00.000-07:002008-06-10T19:47:51.434-07:00First HCG levelMy first HCG level done yesterday was 95. I am only 4 weeks, so that is within the normal range. I can't help but want it to be higher. It's supposed to double every two days. However, I am unable to have another one done tomorrow. I am scheduled to have on done again Thursday instead. BUT....being a nurse can sometimes have its benefits (and downfalls). I had one done today at work and my level came back as 130. So, it is working it's way to being double!Lorenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11278676525840338109noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7056569900276799449.post-79373880619908587422008-06-07T19:28:00.000-07:002008-06-07T19:30:21.125-07:00Definite BFPI went out and bought more pregnancy tests! I took a digital Clear Blue HPT this afternoon and the result read "pregnant". So, I definitely am. These next two weeks will be tough emotionally. I won't know that I am in the clear for a ectopic pregnancy until I have a sonogram showing a pregnancy in the uterus. It can't be done until HCG levels reach 1500. I am scared, nervous and happy.Lorenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11278676525840338109noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7056569900276799449.post-27309371891407816662008-06-07T08:56:00.000-07:002008-06-07T08:59:55.326-07:00Maybe a BFP???Just wanted to post an update. I took a HPT last night and again this morning and got a very faint positive both times. My AF is actually not due until tomorrow. I'm not too excited just yet because of the high risk that it could be ectopic or a miscarriage due to the tubal reversal surgery that I had. Also, today when I was peeing (sorry about the TMI), it ended with a tiny drop of blood. It wasn't dark like implantation bleeding (which I have never had anyway). I kept wiping and wiping after that....being paranoid....but it was clean. Hmmmm.Lorenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11278676525840338109noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7056569900276799449.post-5427183857738421752008-05-06T18:57:00.001-07:002008-05-06T19:00:41.257-07:00Waiting AgainMy DH and I have been TTC since my TR in January. My AF is due next week and again, I am hoping that it won't come. I am wondering if I have done the right thing. I belong to a blog for the doctor's ofc that did my TR.....and I am noticing a significant number of women that are having ectopic pregnancies or miscarriages. They seem to out weigh the normal pregnancies. <br /><br />However, I do like being able to try every month without paying several thousands of dollars.Lorenahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11278676525840338109noreply@blogger.com0