Ruptured Ectopic

Well, I never made it to my doctor appointment today. I ruptured my ectopic pregnancy while working in the ER this weekend. I was in the middle of assisting a doctor with popping a dislocated shoulder back into into place. All of the sudden I got completely soaked in sweat and felt like I was a second away from passing out. I began having pressure and a dull ache through out my pelvic area. I also felt pressure over my bowels. I stepped away to compose myself. I sat down, began fanning myself. After a few minutes it got a little better but the pressure in my pelvis was building. So, I talked with one of the doctors and he asked me check in right away. I gave my patients to another nurse and checked in.

My repeat HCG level showed a drop from 1700 to 1400. The repeat sonogram showed no sac in the uterus and a mass was visible on one of the tubes. The bloodwork also showed a drop in my H and H (which means that I was losing blood)...so, within an hour I was off to the OR. They removed my left tube....which had infact ruptured. There was blood in my belly.

They had been suspecting that my ectopic was on my right side but it turned out to be on the left. I was glad for that. My shorter tube with some scar tissue was the left tube. My right tube is my longer one with no known scarring.

The doctor that did the surgery recommended not TTC for 3 months and having an HSG to check and see if my remainding tube is patent before TTC again.

Physically I am sore. I was discharged this evening. Emotionally I am not as good. I am really feeling the loss of my baby. I also feel anger that I can't just get pregnant and have a healthy baby. I feel scared that I will never have one and that this might happen again.

It makes me really sad to think that I was pregnant yesterday and now I am not...just like that...it's over.